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Friday, February 29, 2008

Talking about the taboo!!

Yes, I'm going to write about it. POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION! Why am I putting it out there for everyone to see that I have suddenly lost all sense of reality? Because any woman reading this who has gone through it, or will go through it, or have friends or loved ones who have gone through it need to know that they are not alone, and it is very real to those who suffer from it. I delivered my sweet baby on Monday the 18th, and the next Sunday, I fell into the deep, dark, terrifying abyss of postpartum. For those extremely blessed women who have never experienced it, I truly can not find the words to explain the feelings that descend on you. All rationality goes out the window, and you find yourself in a lonely, hopeless place with no prospect of ever again feeling normal or happy. The precious child you waited and prayed for while they grew inside you all of a sudden scares you to death. For me, even the smell of baby lotion or sight of a bottle made me nauseous. I have experienced postpartum with every child--Belle, Dru, and now Jeb. I am one of the blessed ones who only suffers for about a week or so, so hopefully I am nearing the end of this horrible place I am in. That is my desperate prayer anyway. But it is so very important to me to just get it out there.... "Postpartum is real, and it happens to the best of us, and it's common for women to experience. It's just not common for anyone to talk about!!!" For me, my husband, family, and friends have been my heroes throughout this terrifying week. So, I beg anyone who happens to read this... be a hero to someone else going through this horrible event in their life. And for anyone else going through it or who will go through it... talk about it. Let people help you. I can't imagine going through it alone.

Ok, enough bad stuff. Other than this--please pray for me that the worst is behind me, and by the end of the weekend, I will be postpartum depression free! On a happy note, I'm posting some more pictures of Jeb. He is so sweet and still so tiny. He is sporting his "tie" onesie and thought he was quite GQ.


Sharon said...

Bless your heart! I will pray that you are on the "up and up" and can feel better. I hate that for you. You are so brave in writing about it and I'm proud of you for being open! Way to go! Jeb is precious! I absolutely LOVE the tie onesie! Talk to you soon! Love ya!

Daniel, Gretchen, and Caden Miller said...

Love the tie onsie. :-) We will be praying for you. Wish I could jump in an help you out!!! But know you're being covered in prayer. Keep us posted.

Superchikk said...

Thanks for being brave and talking about it. I'll be praying for you and thinking of you. Let me know if I can do anything for you.
Melissa Swain

Sara said...

You know we're praying for you. Love the pictures of Jeb. :)